Grrr - I had the most frustrating day!
Earlier this week, I had the most frustrating day!
It started as I was trying to learn some new technology and wasn't finding the answers I needed. Grrrr.
Then my dog got out and ran away from me, getting dangerously close to the highway near our house, scaring me into panic mode. Aaaaah! (He did come back eventually and is safe and sound and somewhat forgiven....)
Then my work time was interrupted by one of my kids.
That was followed by watching the most irritating basketball game I think I've ever seen.
The soup I spent an hour preparing (and 3 hours cooking) turned out TERRIBLE.
I cut my finger while washing dishes.
WHAT THE HECK??
The more irritated I got, the more I found to be irritated about.
Why is this? Because WHAT WE FOCUS ON EXPANDS. OUR INNER STATE CREATES OUR OUTER REALITY.
It's not that any of these things were my fault. It's just that the more I attached to the stories and the feelings of irritation, the worse things seemed to get. Has this happened to you?
I did try to shift things throughout the day. I used tools. I meditated. I did resets. Nothing seemed to help.
Since nothing seemed to be getting me out of my frustration, I began to wonder about what would happen if I just accepted what I was feeling? What if I just allowed the frustration to be? What if I was just gentle with myself?
So I experimented. I acknowledged that learning new things is difficult, that my pup really scared me, and that getting interrupted doesn't feel good - even when it's for a good reason. I laughed about the soup. I bandaged up my finger. I accepted hugs. I witnessed and watched the irritation and I remembered that it was temporary. I reminded myself that I was doing the best that I could and that I was human.
Aaah. That gentleness and self-love felt like being wrapped in a warm blanket. Allowing myself to just feel the irritation and not tell myself that I SHOULDN'T feel it. That's what I needed.
Some days are frustrating. And that's perfectly ok.
Love and light,